yo.. dun feel like studying.. dun feel like slping.. tho' i'm tired.. working tml.. as usual.. gng to make specs too! haha.. gng to make tinted specs.. dunno whether nice or not... hopefully it's nice.. hee.. n cheap.. sch tml.. argh..
it's week 4 already!! for sch term i mean.. and next week there'll be tests coming up.. and i've not studied anything.. oh ya.. juz went sentosa for the 2nd time in 2 weeks ... haha! and this time round i'm burnt! i juz shed my face skin.. n it's so smooth.. haha.. but some haven shed yet... so very ugly lor... and sunday was mother's day.. i felt so sad... i din even wish my mum.. coz i juz dunno how.. coz quarrelled with ws on sat.. and i broke his room door.. coz i was angry tt he locked up the door n i kicked it.. and it broke! den he li jia chu zou lor.. i oso dun wanna care.. i think i grieved my mum... haiz...
anywaez, dunno whether to register for exemplify or not.. i dun feel like gng de... but pastor mong yee ask me on sun whether i got sign up or not.. felt so guilty la.. coz i din even haf the tot of signing up @ tt point of time.. n i juz checked... it's common test week!! haiz... y tt week? if it's one week later maybe i'll go la.. now it's so hard.. esp when the CT timetable still not out.. think they're short of soundman.. and sun's msg was sooooooo piercing.. pastor chian preached on chi svc.. and whenever he sae sth i'll juz feel like crying.. coz it reminds me of my mum... how i always failed her and she's always there for me.. how i'm sick and she took care of me... even when she went for op i nv take such great care for her lor... she still did all the housework... sorry.. dun scold me..
and i think i'm still lost...... church activities dun thrill me now.. even for g12.. i hate this feeling!
God!! pls take it away! help me to serve You like b4... and even more.. forgive me for always failing and grieving You... passion, Lord......
